Lost in Thought

Lets get straight to the point hun, I just want to slide inside,
Not between ya legs, i was thinking about your mind,
Your beauty is two-fold your smile is success,
Can we talk for a while before I finish the test,
I wanna probe you and stroke you for the information you witholding,
Your mind is a maze im tryna get lost deep in your gaze.
Lets take a short break from this deep conversation,
Lets head to the kitchen for some treats and refreshing,
Milky chocolate strawberries and pineapple desserts,
drop your hands my lady let me show you how this works,
blink your eyes slow roll ya head back gently,
take these little treats and let that moan out simply,
staring in your eyes i can see your passion runs deeply,
my mind is all over your body,
but im focused on the way you feel,
believe me when i see the potential in me and you,
maybe im too deep that i forgot where i started,
lets drop the clothes and play around on each others bodies.

Double Standards For Men: Part 1

Top ten common Double Standards that men deal with. Everyday on twitter I constantly see women, complain about how they have to live with double standards and how Men have it so easy. Honestly men live with even more double standards then people think, here are just Ten that I've recently read about.


10. When breaking up, Men are jerks, women are victims -- When it comes down to a relationship, if a guy breaks up with the woman he's labeled as a jerk who would just let her down and that he wasn't all that good for her in the first place. When a woman does it to a guy, "it just wasn't right" and he wasn't pulling his weight as a man or simply put he didn't want to put in the effort to make it work.

9. Men ask and pay, women accept and smile when going on dates -- A man is suppose to ask a woman out on a date and pay, while women just accept (or deny) and smile and accept his payment for the date. That's cool after the first few times but after that, your just taking advantage of the situation. I guess that's the sacrifice for wanting a "confident" man.

8. Men are controlled by sex, women are neglected. -- If she cheats its your fault, if you cheat its because you always need sex. Men aren't always controlled by the power of sex, people often forget men have needs that are emotional as well and at times can just be fed up, Women are just as sexually active if not more than men so to categorize Men as being controlled by sex is inaccurate and just piling on to the stereotypes we all live with.

7. Men will cheat, women have control. -- Women can have male friends, but if a guy has a female friend, hes probably cheating. Too many times we encounter this situation, and more times than not its pretty false, women always say they have "brothers" and good male friends, but let a guy have a close relationship with a female, then people automatically assume that they are having sex.

6. Men have to respect women, but Women don't have to respect Men -- We realize that this is a male dominated society and that women are often seen as the second class citizens to us, but at the same time when you break it down to a one on one relationship more often women blatantly disrespect men on a regular basis then vice-versa. To put this plain and simple, if a Man disrespects a women hes rude, lacks manners, and is considered disrespectful in nature, however, if a Woman disrespects a Man, shes standing up for her principles, holding her own, and considered to a be strong woman.

These are just 5 standards that we as men face in today's society, Part 2 coming soon, because i know people have short attention spans when reading.

We broke up, but we still together

You ever been in a relationship where you guys break up yet you guys keep each other around because you feel that there's a chance that you might get back together? Well I'm writing this to say that in most situations you need to get over it and I'm gonna tell you why.

From the female point of view when she breaks up with a guy it can be over a few reasons but mainly because you see yourself in their life more than they do. With that in the back of your head you also realize the good times you share and the work you put in, with that being said you stay around because you feel attached to this person, and its human nature for females to grow attached to things they put time into. If the guy doesn't want to be with you his actions will dictate that to you, and most likely you need to leave. If you stay around not only do you run the risk of getting hurt, but you lose a friend and all chances of getting with that person. Its a fine line most times however that honestly takes being in the situation to understand and outside forces cant dictate how that will go no matter how you roll it.

Now from the male point of view, when he breaks up with a girl it can usually be summed up into one or a few reasons. A guy can break up with a girl for foolish reasons such as; She cant cook, shes flirtatious, she doesn't care, or you don't see yourself with her in the future. Now i have countless amounts of male friend who would say the latter is the main reason they break up with females, but as you might find there's many reasons why guys keep girls around. For one if the sex is good, that's something you don't want to let go of, we all have are needs and that's one of them. Most of the time a guy feels that he can use a girl's clingy-ness are overbearing emotion to him as an advantage, and in most cases this works. A guy is smarter than he lets on, preying on weakness they can find how to work themselves into a situation where, you guys go from broken up, to still being together as if you guys had a title, overall, however, its most likely a set up for him to find someone new.

In short, both male and female need to look at the red flags that both genders throw up after they break up with each other. The love you thought that was there might not be reciprocated in the fashion you wish or want. Sometimes its best to just drop it, love shouldn't hurt, it should feel pure, genuine, and should be shared. If at anytime there isn't 50/50 participation in love, and hasn't been for a while, it might be time to hang it up, there's someone out there that will love you, trust me...

Colors of Appearance Part I

Everyday on twitter and in life alone, i always hear things about "well i like em light-skin" or "team brown-skin all the way" or "darker the berry sweeter the juice #Teamdarkskin (if the berry was that dark, then Wesley snipes is one sweet dude) Pause. regardless of this ignorant talk.

How stupid are we as african-americans, or any other descent, to label each other off skin color? Lightskins are referred to as the house slaves because they were all goody with the slave master, while brown/darkskin people are considered field slaves because they worked under the heat.

We all come in different shades but to clarify yourself as belonging to a certain color and claiming your better, makes you no better than Hitler and his Aryan brotherhood. You think white people say Team blue eyes over Team Green eyes all day?? No stop being ignorant for once and actually open your eyes, and see that we always try to bring ourselves down over the stupidest of things. Either which way you look at it however no matter how light your skin you will always be a minority in the eyes of Caucasian and any other race until you decide to knock off the silly games and act like the people of one.

Too Damn Nice

Fuck this shit im too nice to go back
Gonna come straight out the gate and say fuck you for that
I hate how i gotta be nice all of sudden
Dudes out here turning dimes in to muffins
Gosh your a sweetheart, bitch you a diet or something?
catch diabetes since im your sweet lil nothing
yeah im angry, and that's that, i generalize if i want to
you cant even stop that,
i sit idly by while you give a glancing eye
you stay judging me, but cant live life thru a just eye
so i realize the lies that was feeding me
and the real eyes have said, you ain't accusing me
and the real lies was soon enough revealed to me
that females and males are just fools you see
we run around yapping talking bout we need 2 settle down
yet our ass wont even take an L sitting down
steady fighting for no reason like we proving a cause
all these whores slimes and slores have no simple cause
but a guy will stay picking, cuz we like it real simple
its not that your ugly, you just too damn deceiving
went a fooled yourself into believing, you the only reason
that a guy should tie you down for just a lil season
so here' my simple thesis for you non-believers
if you dumb down ya self maybe you will find a keeper.

Keep Going

I'm tired
abandon
feeling like I'm fighting a loosing struggle,
no respect from my peers,
and my elders think I'm jealous,
Ive been knocked down to all fours so I'm crawling for a sense,
to be someone special maybe the perfect gent,
its crazy how these words come down as each word is punched in
...like
click
click
click
that's the sound of my thoughts creeping in,
this mind that i have is so complex in thinking,
I'm often left sitting for days in my room
just reminiscence
on false hopes and memories that i know wont come back,
I'm getting to old cant even begin to go back.
I wish we had a time machine so i could change that
but time moves on so I'll never go back.

J. Heat ft Kingpin- Victory Freestyle

One Love - Trey Songz

In the Clouds

I look up into the clouds
I picture you and I
The dark clouds form around my eyes
I cry because the storm is above the lies
False sense of reality had me scarred from thighs to my eyes
Never wil i know true love because i was blinded by your heart
Lies and cheats where do i start
Omega to Alpha End to beginning
too many thoughts cloud my inner thinking
Curse the line from up in the clouds
Im left standing here fertizling the ground with my cries.
Screaming out to boundless heavens and endless depths
Im alone in this world, so im asking whats next?
Die by this sword or take my final test
life is so short who cares if i stunt?
Never realize your most cherished when you rope is too short.
So dead by 24 i lived my life off of hope
the last of my kind the last breath of fresh hope.

All for One

All for one, none for all, steady going for the one coveted by all
day by day, hour by hour, hoping he give you some shade,
you know what you was getting into, had groupies all over here,
you thought you could change him , and be the only one,
foolish thoughts, because hes playing the game like a mage,
your just another girl going all in for one
at the end you just lost, because simply put, he knows your worth
you try so hard to find love, but the guy whose actually feeling you?
well he gotta fend for himself.
Its a shame because hes probably the one for you
but hes too nice of a guy and has perfect flaws for you
such a sweetheart and takes care of it all for you
but you want bad boy daddy with the tats and all
push a nice whip got a crib with no job support
so blind of you not to figure it all
its OK because that nice dude figure it out twice
he was your fall-back option
but now he found his price, your worth was priceless
meaning you was a Zero, alright
nice guy found a girl whose was twice as nice,
and left u thinking damn he right
i was putting all my eggs in one basket
for a dude who didn't even like me like.

"Heartbreak"

Long day at school just got off work
Heading to the crib moms made some jerk
Look at my phone 10 message from her
Love my life right now look at my smirk
Everything was never this way hardship of course
Take you back 6 years when I was just 14 of course
Had a bad chick by any standards who was down for my team
Loved her crazy some would call it puppy love like
Hit the AOL chat we was sending smileys full of love
And my mind would go crazy when she called the house phone for fun
Months went by and things began to slow
I can feel the vibe between us was really getting cold
Suddenly one day her sister hit up my phone
Yo girl got a problem with her heart
She got a hole the size of a quarter
Shaped liked a dart, it hurt me
Shame to see that she might pass away
The girl of my dreams has finally past away
Shame that she slipped right before my eyes
Young kid could do much but cry
Days of me and my pillow just to get by
Weeks go bye and then months
Till one day im chillin with a silly flow
Message pops up and says “hey how you been”
Surprised im like whose this what kind of joke are you playing
She reply’s “it’s me don’t you care that I’m alive”
Silly girl played tricks like a dog now my mind is on fire
She was never dead just wanted 2 see if I was a liar
I gave her my heart and she burned me with cold fire
So never can I take seriously a girl who complains about life
My heart been leaking like an oil spill no gap to stop my life
Story untold now it comes too light
A smile on my face 6 years later
because I knew I’d be iight

J. Cole - Gladiators

Rushed Love

Rushed love


Love is a slow process like the shallow creek weaving through a grand canyon
So young in thought so minute in age
The years of lust slowly replaced by days
Days of wishing and needing for your life to be complete
Times like this can feel lonely without a person to sweep your feet
Never should you rush love that only leads to teary sadness
No need to be a hoe though and catch 15 bodies on a daily average
You value is what you think not determined by other peeps


Never rush relationships because diamonds are that deep
You'll never be wifey if you smashing for his leather
You like one boy and the whole crew is behind you, clever
Its ok you got a nice body and your smarts are up to match
you can focus on your work and stop stressing about these a catch
this post directed at you if you hear what im putting forth
take your time slow and begin 2 measure all your faults
words taken lightly can leave the biggest faults
and actions looked away seem to me come back with some force
Listen please and turn the lights low
I whisper the same truths, now the ball is in your court.

Difficult Women & Simple Men

What follows is a diary of a couple and how their days went.

HER DIARY:
Tonight I thought he was acting weird. We’d made plans to meet at a bar and have a drink. I was shopping with my friends all day long, and I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment.
Our conversation wasn’t flowing, so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk. He agreed but he remained quiet and absent. I asked him what was wrong; he said nothing was wrong. I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry. On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving. I can’t explain his behavior. I don’t know why he didn’t say “I love you too.” When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there and watched TV. He seemed distant and absent. Finally, I decided to go to bed. About ten minutes later he came to bed and to my surprise he responded to my caress and we made love, but I still felt that he was distracted and his thoughts were somewhere else. He fell asleep—I cried. I don’t know what to do. I’m almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else.
My life is a disaster.

HIS DIARY:
I shot the worst round of golf in my life today, but at least I got laid.




Courtesy of http://www.divinecaroline.com/22323/39044-it-s-point-view by Ophelia Payne

Look in the Mirror

We all have our strengths and our weaknesses and at times we use other things in our life to cover for the things we lack. One thing that i constantly see people especial those of the male variety do, is use the fact that they can "get plenty of women" as a front for their own problems. I've seen many of my brethren fall to this statement. I've personally have tried the "single girl" approach and it's worked and failed plenty of times, but the problem that people seem to get is the insecurities that not only females have bought upon themselves but males as well, that its simply fine to deceive, lie, cheat and manipulate. When along these years of my existence did it become perfectly fine to do all of this and people still respected you? Women complaining about how they can't find decent men yet they have a track record of dating the same guy and calling all men the same. Men constantly complaining about how women are deceitful and liars, but quick to manipulate a women for some quick sex. Both sides are wrong, but as typical humans we allow ourselves to commit the same things that we swore off the last time and then cry wolf when it happens again. No gives anyone a chance now a days always wanting to live the fast life in the fast lane see how fast they can get that pussy how fast they can get his dick how fast you can cuff all this fast nonsense. slow down I've reached the age honestly where each move has to be methodical and calculated, the decisions i make here have life-long affects. everyone claim they mature, but ask yourself what makes you that way, and what have you done in life to actually say you are? People all over need to look in the mirror and ask they self who they really see, the real you might just be scarier than you think.

The Commission

Had mad fun last night but i have to admit a lot of people are fake as shit. I think between Jon, Clayon, Tsemaye and I we promoted the open crib hard body mad people hit us up and then no one came. These probably be the same people who always complain every weekend about how there is never anything going on. Not only did we have a grill running with steak, burgers, and hot dogs, but we had chips sodas, some music and mad bottles of liquor. Despite me being the first one 2 K.O (i only had 2 hrs of rest and i was already tired" we was popping bottles last night. Fake people came out in droves the second we posted a picture of us with the bottles poppin, once again people are fake as shit. We had people flake but my boys always got my back the Commission as we like to call it is always a team. You got some of the funniest, smartest and ignorant people in the world, but i respect them all because they like my little family. All together tho we adapted and had fun even gave my boy Charles a cake for everything he does for us, now thats love. If you ass wasn't there oh well to bad for you, but if you gonna talk about how you aint do nothing this weekend then shut up because 120 Pelham road was live last night.

p.s Henny with hypno aka the Green Hulk is dangerous but taste great.

Disrespect

A picture speaks a thousand words what does this say to you. Some might find it funny, some might say its Obama's fault, and some might talk about how female babies aren't respected in Asian societies. what do you think?

Non-Organic vs Organic

Funny how companies work, they tell people that you shouldnt eat non-organic because its bad for you and doesn't do your body good, but at the same time with such a recession your forced to buy the "non-organic" items at Costco and Wal-mart in "variety packs". These companies know that the size of an American family is increasing and by giving people the option of variety packs and the rise of obesity in this country it only feeds into the supply and demand of our economy. These same companies who sell there dirt cheap toxic non-organic products are usually the same who offer the cleaner, natural, and safer option of organic foods. These foods which usually taste horrible and are overpriced and packaged sparsely rarely providing you with an adequate meal for the house. When companies stack the odds so heavily in favor for the non-organic how can you financially and morally choose the organic products which increase you life expectancy over the non organic which can lead to a host of problems.

Break in Emergency

On rainy days like this, sometimes its best to just sit back and reflect on everything and life and just ask yourself what do you want to get out of the day.Each day i always hope that tomorrow will be perfect so that i always have something too look forward to. Ive lost a lot of friends this year, but its OK but in losing them i learned a lesson on what to look for in a person. To many times we are too caring in situations where we shouldn't be. Its fine by me to be a nice guy some might even say sweet, but never for a second think that i wont defend myself and shoot back at you if you were to ever disrespect me. Mount Vernon is nice little town its just that certain people here make it a horrible place to live. Just remember tho perceptions and assumptions are only what people think of you and if they have no part of your life. Why Be Serious?

The Real Immigration Problem

The real immigration problem is not with those coming from the south. Its how slaves were brought from Africa unwillingly and sold into plantations across the Caribbean and America for sugar and other commodities. How about all those Germans who fled Germany during World War 2? They say that race relations in America is finally changing, yet there's people who want to deny the birth-rights of children born in America from illegal immigrants who had the case been a century ago would be labeled in the same way that most Western and Eastern Europeans had been treated. How dare people who always talk about upholding the Constitution and at the same time try to find loopholes that for decades prevent African-Americans and women from voting. America is the home of the free and some might joke it is also the home of the slaves. So why is it wrong for a child born inside these borders not be giving the same rights that countless civil rights leaders before us have bled and sacrifice their lives for? Ask your self that question the answer might surprise you.

Maze Daze

Welcome to The center of the human mind
Look too your right and guess what you'll find
The eyes for they see all I kno
and these have been through a lot like a G.I joe
they tend to hang droopy and stressed ya kno
more like my body man starting to lose all hope
as we continue thru the maze and daze
watch as you be amazed of from all
my senses
See as we travel down the human spine, fine
we reach the legs
which helps me to drive
drive for dream
and drive for a vision
drive for a life
without those ambitions
I guess young Clark
having one of those days
too bad no one there
to take me outta this daze
As we scale the tower the
that we call shoulder blades
we climb inside and start tearing straight at the brain
But don't get lost now cuz its a strange maze
more like a labyrinth keeps you strained and deranged
Mine's works and keeps up with the changing days
Darwin says u gotta adapt 2 stay in the game
the weak are gone and the strong survive
so why i feel like im up on my last lifeline
damn they say Malcolm man you too deep
maybe im too shallow and yall just waist deep
or maybe im too nice just stomp ya feet
cuz its happen before now im dying in the streets
laid out flat man no one to help me

damn what the fuck this aint my storyy
always told that i would grow up strong
but no one wrote the book on how 2 stay up strong... and keep the glory
I guess im finish im totally beat see
My my my this poem is so crazy
and better yet my Flow is so amazing
but im im dying breed no applause for me baby...

Keep Going

I'm tired
abandon
feeling like I'm fighting a loosing struggle,
no respect from my peers,
and my elders think I'm jealous,
Ive been knocked down to all fours so I'm crawling for a sense,
to be someone special maybe the perfect gent,
its crazy how these words come down as each word is punched in
...like
click
click
click
that's the sound of my thoughts creeping in,
this mind that i have is so complex in thinking,
I'm often left sitting for days in my room
just reminiscence
on false hopes and memories that i know wont come back,
I'm getting to old cant even begin to go back.
I wish we had a time machine so i could change that
but time moves on so I'll never go back.

ABCs of Life

Amazing day or so it may seem
Because i feel the same way i didn’t before this dream
Cancerous dream corrupting my mind
Destroying the mold i cast from my eyes
Enveloped my brain cast away my shame im so lost today
Forget my shame...
God help me for I don’t know where to go im stuck in this
House where no place to go
I pray for someone to give me a chance
Jenny Craig don’t do miracles so i guess im dead
Kill myself from inner hatred and fall to my knees cuz
Love got me wasted
My My My do i wish i could fly and go to the heavens and just sleep on the clouds
Never has a mortal been so ravaged by heartache
Open wounds filled with salt
PAIN GO AWAY
Question of the day should i leave or should i stay
Run to the mountains where the kids go and play rivers of the Moon tides of the day
Same ol story somethings never change...
Tell me something new about this life i live because im open to discussion if it means my heart mends
Understand my guilt ..or is it just pain if you don’t understand this puzzle you’ll never get the maze
Vindictive metaphors are just silly name games i cant be confused nor defeated by a simple old mage
Why cant this poem be so simple because life is hard and you gotta catch my symbols
X. could stand be a relationship or...U and Me...but X isn’t what i want to be
Y and I put in these situations see you never really felt the two sides of me and if you did then tell me why you never tried to see me thought to the other side. Long road of life followed along by the ages overgrowth of knowledge and streams of wisdom why am I here for? To listen to music.. follow your heart and listen to you soul read between the lines and you could comfort all. No need for bullshit friends and maybe niggas. I need a full circle of Yes man friends and Excellent niggas Cuz when you down and out and we can’t find the light depend on ya friends and they gonna steer you right...if you followed for this long then u must've got my riddle

Z to A y’all still my niggas

J. Heat ft Stevie Z - Microphone Shutdown

Beyond the Breach

We got men on the moon, but no men with the youth
A country with booming capital, and economical growth
yet the kids starving mothers is crying nothings been solving,
whose tellin these rappers 2 keep rhyming?
Not me, gotta see the world in HD
Clear world picture expose the fakes in 1020i
I..I..See i would always survive
seeing the world thru the 3rd eye
no Illuminati reference there just an observation thru the keen eyes
See I...realize the game that you people all play,
act like we don't care but inside we decay
Building up those walls
but even Jericho could fall
Suppressed memories leave u crawling for a door
maybe you can stop it all if knew what for
but time has done you dirty and the clocks keep moving forth
deep inside our hearts we all know we worth a certain mark
but our mind stays focus on what we bring to the charts
dark roads covered by emotional moss
catch 22 that's where this story starts.........

Can You Handle?

Oh Soyou think no one can handle you
How many Men Have you dated to feel that way?
The way you swing your hips I can tell who was digging you
Street type boy, no man, just age
swag increase cuz he was tatted with a chain, earrings and some gucci shoes,
You just played right into his game,
You like them types dont you though,
thought he can be your lil thug prince
He mistreated you so "no one could handle you since"
Mr. Sincere moved in and tried 2 humble your awareness
Snakes move in silence you were confused, isnt it amazing?
Years of horrible relationships, I cant expect for you to realize the real
You made those choices yet you blame those for the bed you laid ..still
No one can handle you?
Nah your mistaken boo I can handle you
but you choose to deal with you.
the insecurities form from the Prince Thugga dude
Its alright say a prayer for you wretched torn soul
The grass is green if you water it some more.

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Email: Mclark_1127@hotmail.com

Progession of Truth

Misguided youth abandon for false truths.
Lies told by the government left us all aloof.
My role as a black man leaves us endangered and targeted by spoofs
To tell the truth im lost in the white mans world
Children raising Children my Generation is on the fritsz
Why you 20 years old and you on your 2nd kid?
Lost words forever gone in a young black man vocabulary
Stay in School, Father and You can strive to be a black president.
Sling Drugs, Tatted up and Womanize women
those are the popular decision we leave to the women
The same Women who hate our Men who make the decisions.
Uplift our spirits be real to us women
Instead you attract to groupies and tend to hate on Nigga
Try 2 avoid that word but it seem to fit in that sentence
Steady probing my head for the right equation to this vision
Stay in School Malcolm..and stay clean cut..
BUT why am i second choice 2 a these bad boy chumps?
Too many lost women looking for a father figure
TV expose them to the thug side so they got star studded vision
They probably tuned me out when they saw my title
Its ok tho there more inside of me, i got the heart of a lion
Blessed but never cocky, humble but at times it gets rocky
Now tell me about yourself will you comment if i told you i sold poppies?
Never did never will im my own bred of the real deal
I can quote myself for days doesnt mean i'll get a deal
Move steady and stay focus follow me im loyal
Now go away children you been following too long im worried.

Diary

ee all i ever wanna do is be relevant,
Just tell me that i ever meant anything,
Or that you could ever see me and you in another light,
But its like the dark women indoors in the darkest nights by the wrong man,
And see mostly all of them have made you incapable of a first impression,
what i do is i channel my aggression with no cable or antenna,
Just intentions to impress you, if capable,
Hoping that the material possesions can materialise to a better you,
Cars, nothing i drive can drive you out of this frame of mind,
with such an ugly picture in it and,
Money, nothing i buy can buy me more time for your ears to tell your heart to listen to it,
Diamonds, a girls best friend is what they say, but believe me with the right allegience shorty you gon shine anyways,
and everyday that goes by is a couple more lines in her diary,
the day before is better than the present,
so anyone presented in her presence endures these life sentences,
no key for release,
no reason to be around,
her minds in the clouds,
she writes it all down,
in her diary,

credit to Wale - Diary... couldnt of wrote this better myself.

Stop it Slime, Fuck You!

Desire

Desire Desire Desire
Oh sweet Desire
Runs thru my veins even though my chest is so shallow
It runs through my dream of an everlasting scene
Then comes upon a scene that makes me moan and scream
If life was so important why am I a mortal
Friends who use to support you
Cant even be resourceful
Im tired of being the one who tried
While everyone else is the one who strives
Tired of a false dream of make-believes and false-belief
I wanna dream big and accomplish shit
Desire Desire
Oh Sweet Desire
I yearn for your everlasting touch
The breath of desire cools my every nerve
Tingles my toes and brings red from the bone
Desire Desire
Oh Sweet Desire
You hear the moans of the crying who go unfed
I feel the beat cant you hear it....... discreet
Its one with your soul and torn from your heart
It wraps itself in a cloak
And disguises itself
Its feels scared and worried
But Desire for me ..well it just needs to hurry
Desire Desire
Oh sweeet Desire
.....
.....
Run Through My Veins and make me One Again

Misunderstood

Misunderstood feels so lonely but sounds so right

Too many emotions embrace my everyday life
Misunderstood in a life full of the understood
my psyche is twisted
like the metals thrown into a fissure
no medal for uniqueness im my own failure
maybe its the stress of school
or my unorthodox ways
i flip devour and piece together the craziest of rhymes
yet i can barely control the simplest of times
I embrace the conflict of other looking for a tunnel
to channel the inner anger that rages within
quick temper sharp tongue
i can cut daggers through you mind in less than three words
I feel like a dying breed of a monolithic species
im breaking apart at the seams
im pouring out liquids
Misunderstood. yeah that sounds good
We all claim that we don't know the meaning of life
I found that we all live lies and life is one
When i go to defend my friends
i feel left and abandon
Misunderstood yeah that sounds good
Its as if im soooooo far from home
the home that all call...home
Im in a danger zone, im thirsty for blood
i seek conflict anger and amazement
yet i cant lock down the source of the pain
that seeps like a meandering creek through a wood less forest maze
my heart is on E im running outta love
Im low on trust i need a must a will a CAN i promise
a promise to be my friend through thick and thin
but friendships today are like yesterdays condoms,just throw them in a bin
walking the tightrope we call life the wind is thin
it slices at the membrane and tears within
i ramble on in unrecognizable sentences
each word is connected its some strange twist
Im tired of hearing peoples problem
fuck it dont come to me
i doing me for now im who cares whose listening
My advice consider it deaded...
i rather have 1 best friend than 4 who are partime seasonal friends
So with that in mind
My psyche is twisted
Misunderstood in a life full of the understood
Too many emotions embrace my everyday life

Yet Misunderstood feels soo damn lonely but fuck who cares i'll just be a Misunderstood.

Conversations with Jon & Malcolm part 3

Don Cheeto: (6:40 PM)
why micheal strahan have the odee lisp
Lucky Lefty: (6:41 PM)
cuz he suckin dick!
Lucky Lefty: (6:41 PM)
homo ass nigga
Don Cheeto: (6:41 PM)
lol homo thugs
Lucky Lefty: (6:41 PM)
he aint a thug
Lucky Lefty: (6:41 PM)
he jus suck dick!
Don Cheeto: (6:42 PM)
ok homo fag
Lucky Lefty: (6:42 PM)
HE SUCKIN DICK!!
Lucky Lefty: (6:43 PM)
HIM N TIKI!!
Don Cheeto: (6:43 PM)
lmaoo
Don Cheeto: (6:43 PM)
hahah
Don Cheeto: (6:43 PM)
but if tiki was gay how come he couldnt hold on 2 the ball
Lucky Lefty: (6:43 PM)
-___-
Lucky Lefty: (6:43 PM)
*DROPS LAPTOP*
Lucky Lefty: (6:43 PM)
*FALLS OUT LAUGHING*

The Realest Story

Lucky Lefty: (12:54 PM)
i was 11
Lucky Lefty: (12:54 PM)
playin 13 n under summer tourney in greenburgh
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
i was kinda shook cuz we was playin against sum big niggas
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
n it was my 1st time movin up
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
so i got the ball tried 2 drive 2 the basketball
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
i got hammered
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
shit swatted
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
n got knocked down 2 the ground
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
cuz i went up so soft
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
n my dad said from the stands "i bet that'll wake u up"
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
embarrased me OD
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
that kid who did that
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
so im the semi finals of that summer thing
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
he was drivin
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
n i did the same shit 2 him
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
knocked him on the ground
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
sed 2 him
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
bet that;'l wake u up
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
lmao
Don Cheeto: (12:56 PM)
lmaooo
Don Cheeto: (12:58 PM)
but yeahh
Don Cheeto: (12:58 PM)
my dad called from the stands once
Don Cheeto: (12:58 PM)
i looked
Don Cheeto: (12:59 PM)
it was just a doc rivers poster
Lucky Lefty: (1:00 PM)
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
Lucky Lefty: (1:00 PM)
OMG
Lucky Lefty: (1:00 PM)
IM DYING
Lucky Lefty: (1:00 PM)
LIKE DEADASS

Do the white meat nuggets call the dark meat nuggets nuggers?

Don Cheeto: (8:09 PM)
and no one has answered my question
Lucky Lefty: (8:09 PM)
wahh
Don Cheeto: (8:10 PM)
do the white meat nuggets call the dark meat nuggets nuggers?
Don Cheeto: (8:10 PM)
i really wanna kno
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
werd
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
u aint kno?
Don Cheeto: (8:10 PM)
nah
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
1st account of that happenin was in 1948
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
when kernel sanders dropped on da scene
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
in da south rite
Don Cheeto: (8:10 PM)
im listenin 2 Fort Minor one greatest hit that every sports team plays b4 the game
Don Cheeto: (8:11 PM)
uh huh
Lucky Lefty: (8:11 PM)
nigga came thru da spot wit sum fried nuggets rite
Don Cheeto: (8:11 PM)
chea
Lucky Lefty: (8:11 PM)
white ppl was feelin it
Lucky Lefty: (8:11 PM)
but wasnt feelin that a BLACK MAN invented them
Lucky Lefty: (8:11 PM)
so jim crow was like
Don Cheeto: (8:12 PM)
lmao
Don Cheeto: (8:12 PM)
uh huh
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
"get this nigger outta here! but keep the nuggers"
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
shipped them off 2 denver
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
changed the name to nuggets
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
took the credit
Don Cheeto: (8:12 PM)
im bout 2 blog this story
Don Cheeto: (8:12 PM)
lmfaoo
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
dats y denver is mostly white ppl
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
trill shit

The Kobe Hater

Im not even a Kobe Fan like that but i do observe he does get his own since of hatred from the fans. People flat out dont like him. Now we not talking about Lebron so dont bring that this way. Thats called sacking, its about Kobe and his Haters. I just found this selection from a blog kinda interesting tho. You should read it.


"The most interesting of all the KH (Kobe Haters) is hypocrite guy. He says one thing, but his hate for Kobe says another. He says he hates Kobe because he wants to be like Mike, but doesn’t even notice he is wearing a number 23 Cavs jersey. He says he can’t stand Kobe because he’s so arrogant, but his favorite player is a 25 year old who calls himself King and speaks in third person -- all while inviting us to “witness his greatness.” He is always complaining that today’s players only care about money and don’t care about getting better, but for some reason hates the player who works hardest in the NBA. He is often screaming that Kobe can’t win a title on his own in one breath, and in the second breath screaming LeBron needs help. He says things like today’s players have no respect for the players of the past, then turns around and says Kobe steals players moves from the past. He hates Kobe so much that he doesn’t even realize that stuff he says makes no sense. He calls every Kobe fan he knows every time Kobe has a bad game to say “I told you so” but he is the hardest guy to find every time Kobe has great game or hit’s a game winning shot. He always says he can’t stand Kobe because he wants to be like Jordan, even though every Saturday he himself hit’s the park in his Jordan shoes, Jordan socks, Jordan shorts and Jordan shirt and never forgets his Jordan bag full of Gatorade. Hypocrite guy doesn’t even realize everyone wants to be like Jordan including himself, the only difference is Kobe is the only one willing to put in the same work Mike did.

Last but not least is “Ms. I-can’t-stand-him.” This is the female who obviously used to date Bryant, if you didn’t know any better. She often says I can’t stand him with so much passion that you can tell it goes deeper than basketball. She has a long list of reasons she hates him, and not one of them has anything to do with basketball. She doesn’t even have a favorite basketball team, she just roots for whatever team is playing the Lakers. If you watched her throughout the playoffs you would think she was a Suns, Thunder, and Celtics fan her whole life. There really is no need to argue with her because all she ever says is “ I can’t stand him” and all you can really do is wonder, does she know him?

Does every super star in sports have his/her group of haters? Yes, but hating Kobe has gone to a different level, it has taken on an art form. While millions of Americans will admit to being a Kobe hater, there are several hundred thousands of fans out there who don’t even know they are Kobe haters. The saying goes, “it’s lonely at the top,” or as Jay-Z once said, “you don’t even know me and you mad. How it feel to be a hater, now I know exactly how it feels to be a Laker." - Mark Grey

Find whole article at http://www.playersvoice.com/nba/love-to-hate.html

Thanks 2 Tsemaye for the article link he posted on facebook....its still #TeamWade all day tho lol

No love for the Middle Class

I'm tired of the poor getting aid my broke ass caNt get a save . My moms been workin 25 years and can't even afford to send me to a 4 year school. Screw a college loan that's modern day slavery makin me pay 25% interest on a 125 thousand dollars loan. I be damn to see my ancestors work in fields to sharecropping for a profit to me workin 3 jobs fort he bank to take every cent out my pocket. where my aid gimme my dollar I dont want reparations jus pay for my college. 40 thousand for 4 classes and 16 credits you deaded I go sell drugs and cop a new whip to make me feel better. Only way to succeed is to be poor r grow up into rich like richy rich, but ain't no love for the middle class WTf is up with this? The back bone of america being crushed by republcan tax cuts for the rich and democrats plan for those who have it bad. Capitalism been day since the dAy soulja boy was born. I'm tired of the right always fighting the left grow the hell up YOU LIE when u claim that racism ain't alive. Look at the protest everday from tea baggers to racist signs with Obama playin witch doctor and noose hangin up high. Everyone being affected by the social and economic situation of the now but you sit idly by and watch da problem grow do something positive and snap it's throat. get violent and be proactive but don't stab a nigga cuz he got ur girlfriend. It's shame how things r... I'm goin on a vacation to Dubai and slide down the ice in a place surrounded by sand.. Ain't no love for the middle class till we run em poor. Damn!

Like the Chambers on a Pistol.

"My friends rotate like the chambers on a pistol shoot one out guarantee i wont miss em." -- Malcolm Clark
So often as i go through life, ive seen my friends change constantly throughout the years. I realize i have only 2-3 good friends in this life a bunch of people i need 2 fill my social appetite. You know I found that people are in your life for seasons, their more like stepping stones that led you to find someone or something greater in life. So often though friends do become enemies, and thats when things can often get dirty. The person you once told your secrets to, shared moments, and even fought for, is the person who tells your secrets, ruins your moments, and gets people 2 fight you. Its shame but its just another thing we as humans have to go through. My idea is if your enemy expect to be crushed, i don't have mercy against those who have nothing productive or positive to say to me. Honestly to quote one of my favorite movies all of times "The Godfather" -- "I don't feel I have to wipe everybody out, Tom. Just my enemies." If you get on my bad side dont expect to get back on the good. Once you turn your back on me your gone forever, i dont forget, i'll forgive but people who forget tend to have history repeat itself. But thats another topic for another blog.

P.S im back !

Sunday Special Feb 14th

Cudi vs Me

1990

Hmm its a shame to see today young black youth, dead before they can even walk across that college stage. Its a shame to see so many tombstones with the year 1990 on the and the year 2009 or now 2010 on it. Where have we gone wrong what is the problem in our communities that violence and murder are the number one career path for kids? Is it the music that influences us? The Media? The peer pressure? Who knows, theres an epidemic of black death, who is going to stand up and do something about it?

We Can Do Better.

You know I've come to realize that as I grow older the term "We can do better" is a revolving door on life. When are we truly happy with our situation, can we constantly do better? When does the pressure of doing better finally crush you and in turn you worse off than before? Well I’m trying to find that balance between happiness and doing better but it’s just one of life’s mysteries, kind of like the egg and the chicken.
If logic serves me correctly then we can infinitely do better for our self, but seeing as infinite has no time and life is so short we must find a part of us that is happy with where we are. People make life so much more complicated then it seems, in reality we are all out for our self and the experience that we have only leads to the maturity that shines through. WE try to do better for others, yet always talk about how we don't care what people say or do. Often I find myself looking for the approval of others rather than the self-improvement of myself. I can’t really rely on other because they can’t be trusted most of the time. It’s not a shot at their character but more on the way of life now.
I once heard that the true way to happiness is through laughter. That true, how many times have you felt like crap and something funny happened and made you realize that everything could "be better". I know when I’m mad I want to be mad and nothing is suppose to get in my way of being mad, but many times before I’ve been mad and someone has made a joke and I couldn't help but be mad for smiling. Nowadays though everyone is a comedian so jokes are getting played out but in reality they are what make us whole being able to laugh at our self only allows us to put things into context and allow ourselves to free from the shackles of self.
In the goal of trying to do better maybe we should just try to be us...or ourselves, we think that because people who rock Gucci this, Prado that, polo this and roll with stacks are the gods, materials don't make a person, character does, but we are so materialized that we often fail to judge people on the character alone and often get caught in the hype. If we actually took time to see who is actually doing better for themselves we wouldn't always hate on the next person because of our jealous ways. Jealousy is a human trait not female, and men are the most frequent violators of that code. We can do better all by ourselves. Aint that the truth.