Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Keep Going

I'm tired
abandon
feeling like I'm fighting a loosing struggle,
no respect from my peers,
and my elders think I'm jealous,
Ive been knocked down to all fours so I'm crawling for a sense,
to be someone special maybe the perfect gent,
its crazy how these words come down as each word is punched in
...like
click
click
click
that's the sound of my thoughts creeping in,
this mind that i have is so complex in thinking,
I'm often left sitting for days in my room
just reminiscence
on false hopes and memories that i know wont come back,
I'm getting to old cant even begin to go back.
I wish we had a time machine so i could change that
but time moves on so I'll never go back.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

ABCs of Life

Amazing day or so it may seem
Because i feel the same way i didn’t before this dream
Cancerous dream corrupting my mind
Destroying the mold i cast from my eyes
Enveloped my brain cast away my shame im so lost today
Forget my shame...
God help me for I don’t know where to go im stuck in this
House where no place to go
I pray for someone to give me a chance
Jenny Craig don’t do miracles so i guess im dead
Kill myself from inner hatred and fall to my knees cuz
Love got me wasted
My My My do i wish i could fly and go to the heavens and just sleep on the clouds
Never has a mortal been so ravaged by heartache
Open wounds filled with salt
PAIN GO AWAY
Question of the day should i leave or should i stay
Run to the mountains where the kids go and play rivers of the Moon tides of the day
Same ol story somethings never change...
Tell me something new about this life i live because im open to discussion if it means my heart mends
Understand my guilt ..or is it just pain if you don’t understand this puzzle you’ll never get the maze
Vindictive metaphors are just silly name games i cant be confused nor defeated by a simple old mage
Why cant this poem be so simple because life is hard and you gotta catch my symbols
X. could stand be a relationship or...U and Me...but X isn’t what i want to be
Y and I put in these situations see you never really felt the two sides of me and if you did then tell me why you never tried to see me thought to the other side. Long road of life followed along by the ages overgrowth of knowledge and streams of wisdom why am I here for? To listen to music.. follow your heart and listen to you soul read between the lines and you could comfort all. No need for bullshit friends and maybe niggas. I need a full circle of Yes man friends and Excellent niggas Cuz when you down and out and we can’t find the light depend on ya friends and they gonna steer you right...if you followed for this long then u must've got my riddle

Z to A y’all still my niggas

J. Heat ft Stevie Z - Microphone Shutdown

Beyond the Breach

We got men on the moon, but no men with the youth
A country with booming capital, and economical growth
yet the kids starving mothers is crying nothings been solving,
whose tellin these rappers 2 keep rhyming?
Not me, gotta see the world in HD
Clear world picture expose the fakes in 1020i
I..I..See i would always survive
seeing the world thru the 3rd eye
no Illuminati reference there just an observation thru the keen eyes
See I...realize the game that you people all play,
act like we don't care but inside we decay
Building up those walls
but even Jericho could fall
Suppressed memories leave u crawling for a door
maybe you can stop it all if knew what for
but time has done you dirty and the clocks keep moving forth
deep inside our hearts we all know we worth a certain mark
but our mind stays focus on what we bring to the charts
dark roads covered by emotional moss
catch 22 that's where this story starts.........

Monday, July 12, 2010

Can You Handle?

Oh Soyou think no one can handle you
How many Men Have you dated to feel that way?
The way you swing your hips I can tell who was digging you
Street type boy, no man, just age
swag increase cuz he was tatted with a chain, earrings and some gucci shoes,
You just played right into his game,
You like them types dont you though,
thought he can be your lil thug prince
He mistreated you so "no one could handle you since"
Mr. Sincere moved in and tried 2 humble your awareness
Snakes move in silence you were confused, isnt it amazing?
Years of horrible relationships, I cant expect for you to realize the real
You made those choices yet you blame those for the bed you laid ..still
No one can handle you?
Nah your mistaken boo I can handle you
but you choose to deal with you.
the insecurities form from the Prince Thugga dude
Its alright say a prayer for you wretched torn soul
The grass is green if you water it some more.

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Sunday, July 11, 2010

Progession of Truth

Misguided youth abandon for false truths.
Lies told by the government left us all aloof.
My role as a black man leaves us endangered and targeted by spoofs
To tell the truth im lost in the white mans world
Children raising Children my Generation is on the fritsz
Why you 20 years old and you on your 2nd kid?
Lost words forever gone in a young black man vocabulary
Stay in School, Father and You can strive to be a black president.
Sling Drugs, Tatted up and Womanize women
those are the popular decision we leave to the women
The same Women who hate our Men who make the decisions.
Uplift our spirits be real to us women
Instead you attract to groupies and tend to hate on Nigga
Try 2 avoid that word but it seem to fit in that sentence
Steady probing my head for the right equation to this vision
Stay in School Malcolm..and stay clean cut..
BUT why am i second choice 2 a these bad boy chumps?
Too many lost women looking for a father figure
TV expose them to the thug side so they got star studded vision
They probably tuned me out when they saw my title
Its ok tho there more inside of me, i got the heart of a lion
Blessed but never cocky, humble but at times it gets rocky
Now tell me about yourself will you comment if i told you i sold poppies?
Never did never will im my own bred of the real deal
I can quote myself for days doesnt mean i'll get a deal
Move steady and stay focus follow me im loyal
Now go away children you been following too long im worried.

Diary

ee all i ever wanna do is be relevant,
Just tell me that i ever meant anything,
Or that you could ever see me and you in another light,
But its like the dark women indoors in the darkest nights by the wrong man,
And see mostly all of them have made you incapable of a first impression,
what i do is i channel my aggression with no cable or antenna,
Just intentions to impress you, if capable,
Hoping that the material possesions can materialise to a better you,
Cars, nothing i drive can drive you out of this frame of mind,
with such an ugly picture in it and,
Money, nothing i buy can buy me more time for your ears to tell your heart to listen to it,
Diamonds, a girls best friend is what they say, but believe me with the right allegience shorty you gon shine anyways,
and everyday that goes by is a couple more lines in her diary,
the day before is better than the present,
so anyone presented in her presence endures these life sentences,
no key for release,
no reason to be around,
her minds in the clouds,
she writes it all down,
in her diary,

credit to Wale - Diary... couldnt of wrote this better myself.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Desire

Desire Desire Desire
Oh sweet Desire

Runs thru my veins even though my chest is so shallow
It runs through my dream of an everlasting scene
Then comes upon a scene that makes me moan and scream
If life was so important why am I a mortal
Friends who use to support you
Cant even be resourceful
Im tired of being the one who tried
While everyone else is the one who strives
Tired of a false dream of make-believes and false-belief
I wanna dream big and accomplish shit
Desire Desire
Oh Sweet Desire

I yearn for your everlasting touch
The breath of desire cools my every nerve
Tingles my toes and brings red from the bone
Desire Desire
Oh Sweet Desire

You hear the moans of the crying who go unfed
I feel the beat cant you hear it....... discreet
Its one with your soul and torn from your heart
It wraps itself in a cloak
And disguises itself
Its feels scared and worried
But Desire for me ..well it just needs to hurry
Desire Desire
Oh sweeet Desire

.....
.....
Run Through My Veins and make me One Again

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Misunderstood

Misunderstood feels so lonely but sounds so right

Too many emotions embrace my everyday life
Misunderstood in a life full of the understood
my psyche is twisted
like the metals thrown into a fissure
no medal for uniqueness im my own failure
maybe its the stress of school
or my unorthodox ways
i flip devour and piece together the craziest of rhymes
yet i can barely control the simplest of times
I embrace the conflict of other looking for a tunnel
to channel the inner anger that rages within
quick temper sharp tongue
i can cut daggers through you mind in less than three words
I feel like a dying breed of a monolithic species
im breaking apart at the seams
im pouring out liquids
Misunderstood. yeah that sounds good
We all claim that we don't know the meaning of life
I found that we all live lies and life is one
When i go to defend my friends
i feel left and abandon
Misunderstood yeah that sounds good
Its as if im soooooo far from home
the home that all call...home
Im in a danger zone, im thirsty for blood
i seek conflict anger and amazement
yet i cant lock down the source of the pain
that seeps like a meandering creek through a wood less forest maze
my heart is on E im running outta love
Im low on trust i need a must a will a CAN i promise
a promise to be my friend through thick and thin
but friendships today are like yesterdays condoms,just throw them in a bin
walking the tightrope we call life the wind is thin
it slices at the membrane and tears within
i ramble on in unrecognizable sentences
each word is connected its some strange twist
Im tired of hearing peoples problem
fuck it dont come to me
i doing me for now im who cares whose listening
My advice consider it deaded...
i rather have 1 best friend than 4 who are partime seasonal friends
So with that in mind
My psyche is twisted
Misunderstood in a life full of the understood
Too many emotions embrace my everyday life

Yet Misunderstood feels soo damn lonely but fuck who cares i'll just be a Misunderstood.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Conversations with Jon & Malcolm part 3

Don Cheeto: (6:40 PM)
why micheal strahan have the odee lisp
Lucky Lefty: (6:41 PM)
cuz he suckin dick!
Lucky Lefty: (6:41 PM)
homo ass nigga
Don Cheeto: (6:41 PM)
lol homo thugs
Lucky Lefty: (6:41 PM)
he aint a thug
Lucky Lefty: (6:41 PM)
he jus suck dick!
Don Cheeto: (6:42 PM)
ok homo fag
Lucky Lefty: (6:42 PM)
HE SUCKIN DICK!!
Lucky Lefty: (6:43 PM)
HIM N TIKI!!
Don Cheeto: (6:43 PM)
lmaoo
Don Cheeto: (6:43 PM)
hahah
Don Cheeto: (6:43 PM)
but if tiki was gay how come he couldnt hold on 2 the ball
Lucky Lefty: (6:43 PM)
-___-
Lucky Lefty: (6:43 PM)
*DROPS LAPTOP*
Lucky Lefty: (6:43 PM)
*FALLS OUT LAUGHING*

The Realest Story

Lucky Lefty: (12:54 PM)
i was 11
Lucky Lefty: (12:54 PM)
playin 13 n under summer tourney in greenburgh
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
i was kinda shook cuz we was playin against sum big niggas
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
n it was my 1st time movin up
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
so i got the ball tried 2 drive 2 the basketball
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
i got hammered
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
shit swatted
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
n got knocked down 2 the ground
Lucky Lefty: (12:55 PM)
cuz i went up so soft
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
n my dad said from the stands "i bet that'll wake u up"
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
embarrased me OD
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
that kid who did that
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
so im the semi finals of that summer thing
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
he was drivin
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
n i did the same shit 2 him
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
knocked him on the ground
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
sed 2 him
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
bet that;'l wake u up
Lucky Lefty: (12:56 PM)
lmao
Don Cheeto: (12:56 PM)
lmaooo
Don Cheeto: (12:58 PM)
but yeahh
Don Cheeto: (12:58 PM)
my dad called from the stands once
Don Cheeto: (12:58 PM)
i looked
Don Cheeto: (12:59 PM)
it was just a doc rivers poster
Lucky Lefty: (1:00 PM)
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
Lucky Lefty: (1:00 PM)
OMG
Lucky Lefty: (1:00 PM)
IM DYING
Lucky Lefty: (1:00 PM)
LIKE DEADASS

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Do the white meat nuggets call the dark meat nuggets nuggers?

Don Cheeto: (8:09 PM)
and no one has answered my question
Lucky Lefty: (8:09 PM)
wahh
Don Cheeto: (8:10 PM)
do the white meat nuggets call the dark meat nuggets nuggers?
Don Cheeto: (8:10 PM)
i really wanna kno
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
werd
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
u aint kno?
Don Cheeto: (8:10 PM)
nah
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
1st account of that happenin was in 1948
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
when kernel sanders dropped on da scene
Lucky Lefty: (8:10 PM)
in da south rite
Don Cheeto: (8:10 PM)
im listenin 2 Fort Minor one greatest hit that every sports team plays b4 the game
Don Cheeto: (8:11 PM)
uh huh
Lucky Lefty: (8:11 PM)
nigga came thru da spot wit sum fried nuggets rite
Don Cheeto: (8:11 PM)
chea
Lucky Lefty: (8:11 PM)
white ppl was feelin it
Lucky Lefty: (8:11 PM)
but wasnt feelin that a BLACK MAN invented them
Lucky Lefty: (8:11 PM)
so jim crow was like
Don Cheeto: (8:12 PM)
lmao
Don Cheeto: (8:12 PM)
uh huh
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
"get this nigger outta here! but keep the nuggers"
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
shipped them off 2 denver
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
changed the name to nuggets
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
took the credit
Don Cheeto: (8:12 PM)
im bout 2 blog this story
Don Cheeto: (8:12 PM)
lmfaoo
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
dats y denver is mostly white ppl
Lucky Lefty: (8:12 PM)
trill shit

Friday, July 2, 2010

The Kobe Hater

Im not even a Kobe Fan like that but i do observe he does get his own since of hatred from the fans. People flat out dont like him. Now we not talking about Lebron so dont bring that this way. Thats called sacking, its about Kobe and his Haters. I just found this selection from a blog kinda interesting tho. You should read it.


"The most interesting of all the KH (Kobe Haters) is hypocrite guy. He says one thing, but his hate for Kobe says another. He says he hates Kobe because he wants to be like Mike, but doesn’t even notice he is wearing a number 23 Cavs jersey. He says he can’t stand Kobe because he’s so arrogant, but his favorite player is a 25 year old who calls himself King and speaks in third person -- all while inviting us to “witness his greatness.” He is always complaining that today’s players only care about money and don’t care about getting better, but for some reason hates the player who works hardest in the NBA. He is often screaming that Kobe can’t win a title on his own in one breath, and in the second breath screaming LeBron needs help. He says things like today’s players have no respect for the players of the past, then turns around and says Kobe steals players moves from the past. He hates Kobe so much that he doesn’t even realize that stuff he says makes no sense. He calls every Kobe fan he knows every time Kobe has a bad game to say “I told you so” but he is the hardest guy to find every time Kobe has great game or hit’s a game winning shot. He always says he can’t stand Kobe because he wants to be like Jordan, even though every Saturday he himself hit’s the park in his Jordan shoes, Jordan socks, Jordan shorts and Jordan shirt and never forgets his Jordan bag full of Gatorade. Hypocrite guy doesn’t even realize everyone wants to be like Jordan including himself, the only difference is Kobe is the only one willing to put in the same work Mike did.

Last but not least is “Ms. I-can’t-stand-him.” This is the female who obviously used to date Bryant, if you didn’t know any better. She often says I can’t stand him with so much passion that you can tell it goes deeper than basketball. She has a long list of reasons she hates him, and not one of them has anything to do with basketball. She doesn’t even have a favorite basketball team, she just roots for whatever team is playing the Lakers. If you watched her throughout the playoffs you would think she was a Suns, Thunder, and Celtics fan her whole life. There really is no need to argue with her because all she ever says is “ I can’t stand him” and all you can really do is wonder, does she know him?

Does every super star in sports have his/her group of haters? Yes, but hating Kobe has gone to a different level, it has taken on an art form. While millions of Americans will admit to being a Kobe hater, there are several hundred thousands of fans out there who don’t even know they are Kobe haters. The saying goes, “it’s lonely at the top,” or as Jay-Z once said, “you don’t even know me and you mad. How it feel to be a hater, now I know exactly how it feels to be a Laker." - Mark Grey

Find whole article at http://www.playersvoice.com/nba/love-to-hate.html

Thanks 2 Tsemaye for the article link he posted on facebook....its still #TeamWade all day tho lol